Yeah, but I can't even do simple tasks sometimes. My missus has shown me about 20-30 times how to put the dogs' harnesses on and then how to attach their harnesses in their car.
I lose her within about 12 seconds of the conversation. If it's insert tab A into tab B and then loop tab B around tab C, I am still stuck on insert A into B.
Once I feel a little unsure on something, I get stuck at that point and can't think of anything else past that point.
I lost a job at Sainsbury's, because they said to unstack a shelf and clean the shelf and stack the tins from the shelf back up again and I just was simply unable to do it. Every time I tried there were either too many rows, or not enough rows, or I hadn't stacked them deep enough, so I was always left with loads of tins at the end.
At that point you get called stupid by your supervisor. I never, ever had a well paid job and was considered not clever enough for uni.
So when you hear stuff like that and then you know struggled at school too and couldn't even read a book, you do indeed believe yourself to be dumb.
If I can control things myself, I am fine. Over my life, I formed my own football team and my own youth theatre group and my own band and my own little film company and theatre company and when it was me, just me in control, I was absolutely fine.
I now have my own radio show. When they dictate to me and I have to adhere to the rules and do things a certain way, i.e. their way, I really struggle.
When I am left to my own devices I am fine.
Wish I knew way back when what I know now, but there just wasn't the pathway to diagnosis around back then.
Glad so many people can get help these days.
