I'm having a bit of a think. I'm not happy. I'm not happy with me. I'm not happy with who I've become. I'm going to change me. With all this mental health awareness around of late I think I can admit to a whole load of unknown people that I'm not happy with me. I did a test online, I've always been awkward and I really dislike being in large social gatherings. I hate crowds and my god I can't queue it stresses me out. I'm 90% certain to be autistic, obviously high functioning. I've lived 35 years and not one person around me has suggested that I might wanna get checked. They all just think "he's a bit of a twat". I'm at piece with this now, to be fair this is the first time I've revealed this anywhere and I'm happy that I've done it. This is the first step toward me saying "it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of me, I'm going to be me!" Anyone else feel they need to share something?