on this wednesday morning i cant face thinking about Orient yet. i genuienly would like him to drop 8 players from last night. Keep Murphy, Wood and McGoldrick. everyone else drop and play someone new. By friday ill have convinced myself again that we have good players and cant see how we would lose to Orient. sat ill be optimistic and then Sunday ill be depressed again.
I have the worst feeling in my stomach today. The manner of the defeat last night has crushed me and is taking its time to leave.
This is exactly how I feel. Last night and this morning vowed I would spend the afternoon playing with my son, not watching SSN or listening on radio as fed up of feeling depressed, angry and sad about Cov. However, I know that by Friday to these feelings of despair will dissipate, replaced with optimism, then most likely for that optimism to be replaced by anger, despair, frustration and sadness once again. I actually hate the players for the way my weekends and nights are being ruined. I hate them for having to tell my little boy that once again City have lost. To see that joy in his face when I told him we were 1-0 up, then to the see his face this morning when I told him we had lost. I, for the first time hate most of the players. I've just realised this. I mean I hated Bellend and Kyle, one-offs each season, but this is much worse. I don't think they give a monkeys. Robins can only do so much. It is the players.